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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
To all the people that I have, or may have offended, I offer my sincerest apologies for the past few days. I have been on edge for so long and so much that it is taking a toll on me. I felt damn lousy and irritable. But it was wrong of me to take it out on you all. I am truly sorry and I would like to make it up to you.
Especially my darling. You do not deserve this at all. Entirely. And for that, I have something in mind, planned specially for you. I hope that you would like it very much. Thanks for always being there for me and putting up with all my inane bullshit. I love you.
Especially my darling. You do not deserve this at all. Entirely. And for that, I have something in mind, planned specially for you. I hope that you would like it very much. Thanks for always being there for me and putting up with all my inane bullshit. I love you.
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Wah lan eh!!!!! What the fucccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Money meant for other "bigger" things, ultimately land up to repair the car instead. What the hell. It is infuriating, disgusting and most of all, despairing. I am seriously not kidding about this crap.
I don't know. Changing of a bigger brake set, ball joint and radiator is all nice and good. But why the hell does my clutch pump have to go at a time like this?!?!?! ARGH!!! I wish there is some genie that can grant me my wish to eradicate all the problematic issues underlying the entire vehicular system with just a dollar. I spent well over 10 THOUSAND, you heard me right, that is 10 freaking grand just to fix up the car.
The car can speed, it can do wonders for a 17 year old car. But why why why does the parts have to fail every so often? I am really down in the dumps now. And right now, I have to review my finances again to dump more money down to have it fixed. Damn it.
I don't know. Changing of a bigger brake set, ball joint and radiator is all nice and good. But why the hell does my clutch pump have to go at a time like this?!?!?! ARGH!!! I wish there is some genie that can grant me my wish to eradicate all the problematic issues underlying the entire vehicular system with just a dollar. I spent well over 10 THOUSAND, you heard me right, that is 10 freaking grand just to fix up the car.
The car can speed, it can do wonders for a 17 year old car. But why why why does the parts have to fail every so often? I am really down in the dumps now. And right now, I have to review my finances again to dump more money down to have it fixed. Damn it.
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Just had another big fight. One that comes along every couple of years or so. And the ritual starts all over again, where she just keeps at home and I slam my way out of the house to sit in a corner and smoke. What the hell. But then again, as per normal, or what we've come to accept as normal, in the time span of just an hour, we are found to be seated having a slightly muted conversation about how things go. And we see how each other works, in a vastly different light.
Funny that it should take a quarrel for people to really release their pent up energy. The tension lingered in the air for a good 15 minutes before the entire world tremored. And some random dickhead kid walked over and got a string of obscenities hurled at him for no reason whatsoever. That is anger, that is temper and that could be tantamount to physical violence. And I kept enough wits to keep that out. Violence would never, if ever, solve any known issue.
The only one factor that changed within all this, is the addition of another person. She wasn't supposed to be there. An innocent party, caught up in the little trifles of a family. It was quite hurtful to be her. Not one person wanted this, but she had to witness it all.
In any case, what has happened, happened. No one can go back in time and change the past. If we all learn from our mistakes, I guess the world would be a marginally better place to live in. And life would not be as complicated and depressing as it already is.
I sometimes ponder on issues pertaining to humanity. Will it end? How will it end? Because of some jackasses that couldn't keep their heads cool and just decide to end the world in one fell swoop? How has evolution come thus far? Geez, it's way too late already.
Funny that it should take a quarrel for people to really release their pent up energy. The tension lingered in the air for a good 15 minutes before the entire world tremored. And some random dickhead kid walked over and got a string of obscenities hurled at him for no reason whatsoever. That is anger, that is temper and that could be tantamount to physical violence. And I kept enough wits to keep that out. Violence would never, if ever, solve any known issue.
The only one factor that changed within all this, is the addition of another person. She wasn't supposed to be there. An innocent party, caught up in the little trifles of a family. It was quite hurtful to be her. Not one person wanted this, but she had to witness it all.
In any case, what has happened, happened. No one can go back in time and change the past. If we all learn from our mistakes, I guess the world would be a marginally better place to live in. And life would not be as complicated and depressing as it already is.
I sometimes ponder on issues pertaining to humanity. Will it end? How will it end? Because of some jackasses that couldn't keep their heads cool and just decide to end the world in one fell swoop? How has evolution come thus far? Geez, it's way too late already.
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