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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
Yea!! its christmas eve!! haha... been playing maplestory the whole day through. so tired of the game already. and when i was helping my sister level up her acc, i met this guy, he ks me and then say he is right. basket... somemore lower my sis account fame level!! wah!! me so angry, take all my accounts and pia him.. i lower his fame and then just run away... i know its bad, but then, he so sia lan... buay ta han... im gonna put a bounty on his fame liao... get ppl to defame him. and then ask friends to defame him more. lol... he wanna play punk, i play punk with him.
im so bad hor... lol.. i dun give a shit abt him. he wanna play tough, i can play equally tough. if not, i hit back double. anyway, lets forget abt him... o yea, if any maplers are reading this, defame 'MVPknight' and there will be a 10K reward. I mean it. and then put ur comments here and send me a screenshot of the defamation. and i will reward you justly.
so, anyway, today had christmas eve dinner at crystal jade. my sis and i share the cost and bill turned out to be abt 77 bucks. not so bad when its shared between 2 people. so had dinner already, then my dad just handed me a kingston 256MB flash disk. woohoo!! the biggest one i have now is 128MB... 256MB can store so much more.. but too bad dun have MP3 player capability. o well, shouldnt ask for too much anyway. thx for the christmas presents anyways...
and now, its so late already, and im still playing maplestory. and i gotta log off already. very tired. cannot defame MVPknight anymore liaoz... wahahaha... i make sure his fame is negative value. gotta slp... nite nite!!!
im so bad hor... lol.. i dun give a shit abt him. he wanna play tough, i can play equally tough. if not, i hit back double. anyway, lets forget abt him... o yea, if any maplers are reading this, defame 'MVPknight' and there will be a 10K reward. I mean it. and then put ur comments here and send me a screenshot of the defamation. and i will reward you justly.
so, anyway, today had christmas eve dinner at crystal jade. my sis and i share the cost and bill turned out to be abt 77 bucks. not so bad when its shared between 2 people. so had dinner already, then my dad just handed me a kingston 256MB flash disk. woohoo!! the biggest one i have now is 128MB... 256MB can store so much more.. but too bad dun have MP3 player capability. o well, shouldnt ask for too much anyway. thx for the christmas presents anyways...
and now, its so late already, and im still playing maplestory. and i gotta log off already. very tired. cannot defame MVPknight anymore liaoz... wahahaha... i make sure his fame is negative value. gotta slp... nite nite!!!
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haha... been playing maplestory these past few days. so kinda neglected my blog... then oso nothing to report one. wahahaha... day in day out in sch, and then sit in chair for like 8 hours per day... ass pain already lor. haiz, then somemore the teachers talk, i also dun understand. they could have been talking spanish and i wouldnt have known any better. basket. wonder how im gonna pass my exams. o well, that day come then i panick.. now its fun time!! playing maplestory again!
somemore tutorials oso neva do, lecture notes oso neva read. aiya, who cares about studying now?? all right la, so read read a bit la, but oso not that serious... more or less no mood to study yet. besides, my friends are always playing and well, when its time for seriousness, yea, we're serious. and we're kinda close to each other.. like brothers... so we help each other out in times of need. but anyways, these guys have been saving my ass time and time again... i keep getting into crap and then they help me out.. nice hor!! wahahah... these guys very nice one. nice pals.
o well, its only 7pm and my dinner... er, dunno what im having for dinner la... lazy to cook, lazy to buy, lazy to eat oso. somemore tonight must chiong tutorial, otherwise kena kicked in the ass by the stupid tutorial teacher. basket. all the ECE lecturers there in np, all got speech defects one. really ah, cannot hear them say nuts. and some so boring, talk a while, feel like crashing already. siao liaoz...
aiya, play maplestory now, then talk about doing work later... wahahaha... see ya'll all!!!
Happy Mapling!!!
somemore tutorials oso neva do, lecture notes oso neva read. aiya, who cares about studying now?? all right la, so read read a bit la, but oso not that serious... more or less no mood to study yet. besides, my friends are always playing and well, when its time for seriousness, yea, we're serious. and we're kinda close to each other.. like brothers... so we help each other out in times of need. but anyways, these guys have been saving my ass time and time again... i keep getting into crap and then they help me out.. nice hor!! wahahah... these guys very nice one. nice pals.
o well, its only 7pm and my dinner... er, dunno what im having for dinner la... lazy to cook, lazy to buy, lazy to eat oso. somemore tonight must chiong tutorial, otherwise kena kicked in the ass by the stupid tutorial teacher. basket. all the ECE lecturers there in np, all got speech defects one. really ah, cannot hear them say nuts. and some so boring, talk a while, feel like crashing already. siao liaoz...
aiya, play maplestory now, then talk about doing work later... wahahaha... see ya'll all!!!
Happy Mapling!!!
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As you can see, I have changed the layout once more. I fiddled with the code and I managed to change the original settings and wordings with a different colour neon light... same thing with the borders. was no easy task. took me quite a while to get everything right and finding such a song to accompany my blog... the song is Life by Desree. nice song huh?? I love this song alot!!
But anyway, today at sch, boring as heck. In lesson almost slept, had no computer to play with, but soldering was fun!! we had to solder our PCB ( printed circuit boards ) and i had a fun time there. i prefer practical lessons to theory anyway... haha, im a hands on person. so maybe that explains why i like to slap everyone on the back?? wahaha... my friends are being tortured under me... like to 'surprise' them many times. well, anyway, after school chiong home play underground 2 as usual. hand itchy after so many hours away from my laptop... haha...
and at this hour, im up coz i just finished doing up my blog... and im quite satisfied with the results. for now... haha... another day hand itchy then come and pia again... well, late already, and im gonna crash soon... nittie...
But anyway, today at sch, boring as heck. In lesson almost slept, had no computer to play with, but soldering was fun!! we had to solder our PCB ( printed circuit boards ) and i had a fun time there. i prefer practical lessons to theory anyway... haha, im a hands on person. so maybe that explains why i like to slap everyone on the back?? wahaha... my friends are being tortured under me... like to 'surprise' them many times. well, anyway, after school chiong home play underground 2 as usual. hand itchy after so many hours away from my laptop... haha...
and at this hour, im up coz i just finished doing up my blog... and im quite satisfied with the results. for now... haha... another day hand itchy then come and pia again... well, late already, and im gonna crash soon... nittie...
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Basket... today reach school late. as usual. coz today must be in by 8am... and shit, i slept at 4 am last night. haiz... go into class, oso do nothing... slack around. day passed by fairly quickly la. coz of the things we did and then oso stone during classes. haha... im getting kinda lazy on my work. same like last semester, will wait until i panic then chiong again.
o well, its like practically, the whole day i was playing either maplestory or underground 2... haha, both games very addictive... sit with friends one corner in the sch and LAN together on underground 2... haha... very fun... but suay la, today got some problems, so in the end, play career mode instead. anyway, i saw this gal again today... haha, i dunno what im feeling now, so kinda messed up. its like im not willing to go into another relationship, but then oso had feelings for her in the past but just covered it up. so not sure how to move from here...
but as for programming class, that made me kinda pissed... stupid ceilidh, dunno how to mark programs one. my program is correct in structure and formula wise, and it gave me a grade E... wah lau, i had to look it through so many times to try and see whats wrong with the program. but dont see problem, call teacher, he oso say no problem. friends oso say the same thing. submit it back to ceilidh, WTF!!!!! another E!!! siao eh, the entire thing is so screwed up. then submit few more times to try again, still E... haiz...
go home already, look at the program for another hour and made so minor changes.. mind you, these changes are only the comments and spacing. and then submit, i kena A. i see that A only, super mixed feelings... wanna trash ceilidh, but oso damn happy la... anyway, ceilidh got through me intact and then i play, you guessed it, maplestory! wahahaha...
so late already. so i scoot off to bed liaoz... tired... nite all...
o well, its like practically, the whole day i was playing either maplestory or underground 2... haha, both games very addictive... sit with friends one corner in the sch and LAN together on underground 2... haha... very fun... but suay la, today got some problems, so in the end, play career mode instead. anyway, i saw this gal again today... haha, i dunno what im feeling now, so kinda messed up. its like im not willing to go into another relationship, but then oso had feelings for her in the past but just covered it up. so not sure how to move from here...
but as for programming class, that made me kinda pissed... stupid ceilidh, dunno how to mark programs one. my program is correct in structure and formula wise, and it gave me a grade E... wah lau, i had to look it through so many times to try and see whats wrong with the program. but dont see problem, call teacher, he oso say no problem. friends oso say the same thing. submit it back to ceilidh, WTF!!!!! another E!!! siao eh, the entire thing is so screwed up. then submit few more times to try again, still E... haiz...
go home already, look at the program for another hour and made so minor changes.. mind you, these changes are only the comments and spacing. and then submit, i kena A. i see that A only, super mixed feelings... wanna trash ceilidh, but oso damn happy la... anyway, ceilidh got through me intact and then i play, you guessed it, maplestory! wahahaha...
so late already. so i scoot off to bed liaoz... tired... nite all...
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Today really gone case. i mean, the day went fairly well, until night time that is. After school, I came home immediately and then relax for a while. Play MapleStory and the like. Then start to get serious and then worked on my programming. Wah, stare at the stupid program for so long, cannot figure out whats the problem with it. Then ask friend for help, he 5 mins figure out already. Basket.. Like that what kind of condition to go to exams?? Siao already.
Then a bit bo liao later at night, started to fool around with my blog settings and then change the layout. As you noticed, I have a new layout and a new skin. Appreciate it, coz it took me 4 hours to get it in order. coz of the fact that i accidentely deleted my hardwork when i almost completed it. Shit... So this is round 2. and lucky, i didnt have any impulses... So I have a new layout, and im a happy trooper!! Well, so late already and tmr i have to wake up at 6 am!! AHHHHH!!!!!! die already la!! i better chiong into bed already... Night!!
Then a bit bo liao later at night, started to fool around with my blog settings and then change the layout. As you noticed, I have a new layout and a new skin. Appreciate it, coz it took me 4 hours to get it in order. coz of the fact that i accidentely deleted my hardwork when i almost completed it. Shit... So this is round 2. and lucky, i didnt have any impulses... So I have a new layout, and im a happy trooper!! Well, so late already and tmr i have to wake up at 6 am!! AHHHHH!!!!!! die already la!! i better chiong into bed already... Night!!
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erm, today started out kinda shitty... woke up then thought late for school. basket. lucky wasnt late la. go sch already, first class is oral communication. some kinda weird lesson where the teacher is paid to slack and the students entertain him. at least thats the way i view it. so lagi terok, i first one called up to talk. talk abt things concerning singapore, such as casinos in singapore or mastering the second language. haiz... such kind of topics dunno wat to talk la...
then second and last lesson for the day, is sports and wellness. put simply, its physical education. yeah right...... first of all, the general impression of the teacher from the students is that he is a bloody big bastard for whats hes worth. he thinks hes the greatest and that he is the master. paiseh for the language, but thats what everyone thinks. sad to say, i think the same way too. but anyways, the badminton lesson is so screwed up. i mean, those who can play, teach those who cannot play la. you dont hinder everyone's sports time by teaching those who know how to play the basics again! the better way to teach sports will be from their peers... at least i feel that way. and i learn better that way. not that im very good a badminton player anyway. haha...
o well, school over for the day anyway. been in school for only 4 hours then run back home. really got nothing to do anyway... haha... when i have more free time, i will blog again. coz school work is eating me up, literally. i'll see ya another time real soon...
then second and last lesson for the day, is sports and wellness. put simply, its physical education. yeah right...... first of all, the general impression of the teacher from the students is that he is a bloody big bastard for whats hes worth. he thinks hes the greatest and that he is the master. paiseh for the language, but thats what everyone thinks. sad to say, i think the same way too. but anyways, the badminton lesson is so screwed up. i mean, those who can play, teach those who cannot play la. you dont hinder everyone's sports time by teaching those who know how to play the basics again! the better way to teach sports will be from their peers... at least i feel that way. and i learn better that way. not that im very good a badminton player anyway. haha...
o well, school over for the day anyway. been in school for only 4 hours then run back home. really got nothing to do anyway... haha... when i have more free time, i will blog again. coz school work is eating me up, literally. i'll see ya another time real soon...
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sry ya, having been posting for a quite a while already. coz sch just started and then got every damn thing need to settle. somemore got so many things to remember, like what time for lunch and all that. stupid lecturers, talk until mouth dry still dun wanna stop. cannot take it. so boring at sch. only thing that makes my day is my friends.
school basically sucks. lecturers have speech defects, cannot explain well. some even better, take one hour to explain one page. dunno what he teaching. either he teaching maths, english or programming. dumb... anyway, its like my entire week is so cramped up. with monday to thursday, i gotta stay in sch from 9-5pm... wat the hell, its like a work week la... but friday, IM OFF!!!!! i have no school on friday! and thats tomorrow!! woohoo!! somehow, my class timetable got a day off every week. and that means long weekend. damn i happy. get to sleep in and wake up late. haha...
also, these past few days been playing underground 2 also. wah, very exciting leh... can stick at the com for 5 hours straight. not bad... nice game to play. very challenging. anyway, cannot talk much already. coz oso very tired. first week at sch so hectic. hope can settle down soon. otherwise sure go crazy one. nite nite...
school basically sucks. lecturers have speech defects, cannot explain well. some even better, take one hour to explain one page. dunno what he teaching. either he teaching maths, english or programming. dumb... anyway, its like my entire week is so cramped up. with monday to thursday, i gotta stay in sch from 9-5pm... wat the hell, its like a work week la... but friday, IM OFF!!!!! i have no school on friday! and thats tomorrow!! woohoo!! somehow, my class timetable got a day off every week. and that means long weekend. damn i happy. get to sleep in and wake up late. haha...
also, these past few days been playing underground 2 also. wah, very exciting leh... can stick at the com for 5 hours straight. not bad... nice game to play. very challenging. anyway, cannot talk much already. coz oso very tired. first week at sch so hectic. hope can settle down soon. otherwise sure go crazy one. nite nite...
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well, today was kinda interesting. coz it was the first time in a long while that i told my mother about my problems and stuff. i mean, she has the right to know and i feel its my duty to tell her for the reason that she was very worried abt me.
to put it short and sweet, we talked till 3am and she told her from her point of view. and basically, she reaffirmed me that it is time to give L up. i myself feel that i should give her up already. maybe its just coz of the familiarity that she gives me that im not willing to give up on. and now, im trying my best to make a move from there. its not easy, but i have to move on.
but what i can say is that im not the confussed boy that i was 4 weeks previously. i have now turned into someone that has a course of action to do and will carry it out. and no more fickle mindedness. that is the past. and now, i wont even bother to look back and regret at how life may have turned out. from my mother, i trust her judgement totally. no questions asked. and i know that the time has come to let L go. its over and regretting isnt going to make it any better.
its late already and i guess its time to sleep. o well, life is such that you have to experience pain yourself. and experience is the best teacher. thanks mum... appreciate your help. and your guidance. your experience has taught me many things.
to put it short and sweet, we talked till 3am and she told her from her point of view. and basically, she reaffirmed me that it is time to give L up. i myself feel that i should give her up already. maybe its just coz of the familiarity that she gives me that im not willing to give up on. and now, im trying my best to make a move from there. its not easy, but i have to move on.
but what i can say is that im not the confussed boy that i was 4 weeks previously. i have now turned into someone that has a course of action to do and will carry it out. and no more fickle mindedness. that is the past. and now, i wont even bother to look back and regret at how life may have turned out. from my mother, i trust her judgement totally. no questions asked. and i know that the time has come to let L go. its over and regretting isnt going to make it any better.
its late already and i guess its time to sleep. o well, life is such that you have to experience pain yourself. and experience is the best teacher. thanks mum... appreciate your help. and your guidance. your experience has taught me many things.
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I havent really been thinking abt L nowadays. maybe im just trying to forget. im not sure myself. but somehow, in my subconscious mind, i keep thinking abt her. and thing is, i dream abt her too. God, help me here. im going crazy if i cannot get her out of my mind.
i dreamt that we were together at some event blah blah blah... as long as we were together having fun... that was it. and somewhere, i just wish i wasnt so selfish in the past to let her go and concentrate more on my studies. but come to think abt it, i guess i made the right decision for my future. whether it be with her or not, she will hold a special place in my heart forever. the only person that i will love that much. to me, she is beautiful because i love her. and forgetting her is impossible.
anyway, its high noon and im stuck at home playing maplestory as usual. using the game to take my mind off things. and i hope it'll work before i start sch. getting bogged down by her during sch is gonna drive me nuts. o well, play maplestory again.. laterz.
i dreamt that we were together at some event blah blah blah... as long as we were together having fun... that was it. and somewhere, i just wish i wasnt so selfish in the past to let her go and concentrate more on my studies. but come to think abt it, i guess i made the right decision for my future. whether it be with her or not, she will hold a special place in my heart forever. the only person that i will love that much. to me, she is beautiful because i love her. and forgetting her is impossible.
anyway, its high noon and im stuck at home playing maplestory as usual. using the game to take my mind off things. and i hope it'll work before i start sch. getting bogged down by her during sch is gonna drive me nuts. o well, play maplestory again.. laterz.
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