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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
let the light shine forth, and be my guiding path. into the darkness i follow it, a thin beam parting the blackness that surrounds me, hoping that one day, it will bring me to my destination safe and sound. this is all i ask, and this is all i hope for.
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00:18
00:18
I just read something off Facebook and I realised that I had forgotten the lessons learnt from the past. The entire excerpt, below.
"People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered
and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships
and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant."
After all this, I remembered the lesson again. Pity that it took a while. Well...
"People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered
and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships
and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant."
After all this, I remembered the lesson again. Pity that it took a while. Well...
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05:05
05:05
everytime i think of you, the images of your family comes back and irks me. amazing what money can do to people and alter their mindset to such a point of being above the rest. having money isn't everything in this world. its having certain things to make it in life.
lifetime friendships, not just business colleagues to socialise with. lifetime commitments, where you will always be there for them, no matter what. i dont know where i stand, but i guess im all over the place. its hard to pick up the shattered pieces strewn all over the floor.
well, anyway, the past is the past. i cant turn back the hands of time. its time to go out and drive again. i wanna drive far out and distant. maybe its psychological, maybe its something else. i'll leave that problem for another day to solve. its not the correct time now.
lifetime friendships, not just business colleagues to socialise with. lifetime commitments, where you will always be there for them, no matter what. i dont know where i stand, but i guess im all over the place. its hard to pick up the shattered pieces strewn all over the floor.
well, anyway, the past is the past. i cant turn back the hands of time. its time to go out and drive again. i wanna drive far out and distant. maybe its psychological, maybe its something else. i'll leave that problem for another day to solve. its not the correct time now.
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17:35
17:35
im pissed off, tired and i really cant be bothered anymore. dont bother me for a while. maybe a long while. just leave me alone. i want to be with myself and sort myself out. simple english. can you understand it? just dont ask any more questions. thats all.
love me, hate me, thrill me, kill me, hold me, throw me, play me, ignore me.
love me, hate me, thrill me, kill me, hold me, throw me, play me, ignore me.
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18:58
18:58
Today's game plan was humongous bombastic blow-you-out-of-this-world words.
obviously, i lost. i do not school myself in such words for i see no point in. but it was fun, for the moment that it lasted.
what exactly is language, i started to ask myself. i pondered over it for quite a while. i then realised, language is not just about big bombastic words that puts others out in a daze. its about the dissemination of information in a proper, ease of use manner so as for the audience to capture the main message. don't get me wrong, i'm not a sore loser. i always did like to learn these words, but when your audience doesn't understand you, would they actually BOTHER to keep interest in the conversation? does that then show that language, in its entirety of using complicated elongated words to describe a simple action or meaning, is ultimately a failure since it cannot even capture one's attention and convey its intended message? then why even have such words when simple ones will do?
i also realised, in an extremely singaporean context, people are more impressed with those who can utilise such flowery language to convey a simple message. but will your FULL target audience actually understand even HALF of what you are saying? then i sought out the root of the problem, why would people use such words in a superfluous manner? i didn't need to look very far either. PRIDE. the adage, pride goeth before the fall pops into mind. i've seen it before, and i believe with everlasting faith, that i will see it again. for the world is filled with people built with the want to impress rather than understand.
inane actions of utilising such words for the wrong reason would eventually bring one's mindset down to the level capable of showing one's powerful grasp of a language, but not one's exquisiteness in handling it. however, i am still impressed by those who yearn to learn such bombastic words, not for the sake of preening one's feathers, rather for use in a valid reasonable context. for those that have in mind of just being above the rest by knowledge of such flowery language, i truly am ashamed of speaking the very same language that rolls off your tongue.
obviously, i lost. i do not school myself in such words for i see no point in. but it was fun, for the moment that it lasted.
what exactly is language, i started to ask myself. i pondered over it for quite a while. i then realised, language is not just about big bombastic words that puts others out in a daze. its about the dissemination of information in a proper, ease of use manner so as for the audience to capture the main message. don't get me wrong, i'm not a sore loser. i always did like to learn these words, but when your audience doesn't understand you, would they actually BOTHER to keep interest in the conversation? does that then show that language, in its entirety of using complicated elongated words to describe a simple action or meaning, is ultimately a failure since it cannot even capture one's attention and convey its intended message? then why even have such words when simple ones will do?
i also realised, in an extremely singaporean context, people are more impressed with those who can utilise such flowery language to convey a simple message. but will your FULL target audience actually understand even HALF of what you are saying? then i sought out the root of the problem, why would people use such words in a superfluous manner? i didn't need to look very far either. PRIDE. the adage, pride goeth before the fall pops into mind. i've seen it before, and i believe with everlasting faith, that i will see it again. for the world is filled with people built with the want to impress rather than understand.
inane actions of utilising such words for the wrong reason would eventually bring one's mindset down to the level capable of showing one's powerful grasp of a language, but not one's exquisiteness in handling it. however, i am still impressed by those who yearn to learn such bombastic words, not for the sake of preening one's feathers, rather for use in a valid reasonable context. for those that have in mind of just being above the rest by knowledge of such flowery language, i truly am ashamed of speaking the very same language that rolls off your tongue.
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20:50
20:50
crumbling ashes. they dont go away. i dont know how to, and im at a complete loss of what else to do. contemplation of the problem does nothing. no actions can be done about it. too much, too fast has happened within a short space and time. it is just too plain confusing.
everything runs through my mind at warp speed. whether i like it or not, the situation replays itself, on a continuous loop, in my mind. its maddening. certain scenes seems just so vivid. its just as if i was there again. to hell with it eh? its just easy to say.
whatever it is, i know one thing. i cant do anything. all i can do is to drown it out, and hope that one day, it will lose its reality within this realm. but yeah, we'll see where this leads to. heart palpitation, vestibular neuronitis and cartilage. not bad for starters.
everything runs through my mind at warp speed. whether i like it or not, the situation replays itself, on a continuous loop, in my mind. its maddening. certain scenes seems just so vivid. its just as if i was there again. to hell with it eh? its just easy to say.
whatever it is, i know one thing. i cant do anything. all i can do is to drown it out, and hope that one day, it will lose its reality within this realm. but yeah, we'll see where this leads to. heart palpitation, vestibular neuronitis and cartilage. not bad for starters.
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11:29
11:29
it is the beginning of the end, the end of the beginning.
everything has a start point, and similarly, an end point.
the run of 99 was a nice one, even with a chiong sua car. i miss the old days where there were Evos and RXs that ran the route. along on to Mount Faber and then Lim Chu Kang. no whit of a care in the world, just racing and playing. running where we can.
Come 30 Nov, there will be a speed run. i promise. Destination unknown. God knows. Yeahhhh...
the night life i lead is extremely amazing now. like totally.
everything has a start point, and similarly, an end point.
the run of 99 was a nice one, even with a chiong sua car. i miss the old days where there were Evos and RXs that ran the route. along on to Mount Faber and then Lim Chu Kang. no whit of a care in the world, just racing and playing. running where we can.
Come 30 Nov, there will be a speed run. i promise. Destination unknown. God knows. Yeahhhh...
the night life i lead is extremely amazing now. like totally.
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12:55
12:55