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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
I want to FUCKING SCREAM. Scream my lungs out, my throat sore and my voice hoarse. I feel ready to let out a bloodcurdling scream to stir the dead in their graves.
How in the entire friggin world can I construe your actions? Your words become meaningless. It is, ultimately, just words to me that pass in between the void. Do you even know what you are doing? Do you realise where the path is leading? Do you even care?
Seriously, this is maddening, to say the very least. I'm mentally drained to ponder on this further. No one can help you if you choose not to be helped. It's not as if it is a big loss to me. One can spend all day, but you would only budge if you want to. Bah...
Don't come near me when I am in this state. I WILL bite. Literally. And not let go.
A vicious dog I am, without remorse nor sorrow to tear apart anyone and everyone at this point in time.
With no upper brain function to control my actions and thoughts, I am left with my instincts and rely on my senses to guide my path instead. Leave. And go far. Do not turn back. Systematically, I MIGHT go back to what used to be. Time is the greatest factor above all.
I have to learn some meditation or some other shit. Something tells me that I would probably face battery charges in a court of law if I try to learn anything now. Temper check, temper check, damn it. Who the goddamnfuck cares. Sure as hell, not that I care.
How in the entire friggin world can I construe your actions? Your words become meaningless. It is, ultimately, just words to me that pass in between the void. Do you even know what you are doing? Do you realise where the path is leading? Do you even care?
Seriously, this is maddening, to say the very least. I'm mentally drained to ponder on this further. No one can help you if you choose not to be helped. It's not as if it is a big loss to me. One can spend all day, but you would only budge if you want to. Bah...
Don't come near me when I am in this state. I WILL bite. Literally. And not let go.
A vicious dog I am, without remorse nor sorrow to tear apart anyone and everyone at this point in time.
With no upper brain function to control my actions and thoughts, I am left with my instincts and rely on my senses to guide my path instead. Leave. And go far. Do not turn back. Systematically, I MIGHT go back to what used to be. Time is the greatest factor above all.
I have to learn some meditation or some other shit. Something tells me that I would probably face battery charges in a court of law if I try to learn anything now. Temper check, temper check, damn it. Who the goddamnfuck cares. Sure as hell, not that I care.
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