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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
you know how life can really screw you around? it really sucks.
i went into BMTC with the objective to train hard and well, to get a marksmanship badge to be proud of. and now, life takes a turn for the worse. i really cant believe it. i feel a terrible pain in my knee. it hurts so bad that i cant sit crosslegged for more than 5 mins. i cant walk properly at times. i cant do the things that my platoon mates are doing, training out in the sun and getting fitter. damn damn damn damn damn...
it sucks. i dont want to just sit around and do nothing all day. i cant believe how shitty my life is now. its like im living for no reason. my objectives before NS were crystal clear. i dont need to be the best, since there are others better than me, but i want to prove something to myself to make it out of NS in one piece with achievements. but now, they are trashed. it just goes down the crapper like that. i cant do the things my friends are doing and i feel useless.
im trying my best to cope with this additional fall. i have to push myself to the physical limit and try to recover in the shortest time possible. i dont want to laze inside and office doing nothing everyday or menial shit. im going to get myself well and get back into training no matter what.
i went into BMTC with the objective to train hard and well, to get a marksmanship badge to be proud of. and now, life takes a turn for the worse. i really cant believe it. i feel a terrible pain in my knee. it hurts so bad that i cant sit crosslegged for more than 5 mins. i cant walk properly at times. i cant do the things that my platoon mates are doing, training out in the sun and getting fitter. damn damn damn damn damn...
it sucks. i dont want to just sit around and do nothing all day. i cant believe how shitty my life is now. its like im living for no reason. my objectives before NS were crystal clear. i dont need to be the best, since there are others better than me, but i want to prove something to myself to make it out of NS in one piece with achievements. but now, they are trashed. it just goes down the crapper like that. i cant do the things my friends are doing and i feel useless.
im trying my best to cope with this additional fall. i have to push myself to the physical limit and try to recover in the shortest time possible. i dont want to laze inside and office doing nothing everyday or menial shit. im going to get myself well and get back into training no matter what.
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