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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
diplomatic bullshit rears its ugly head. im sick and im tired of being diplomatic. its so goddamned hard, and it does not get the full point across. being diplomatic causes people to try and manuveur for room to stall or to buy time.
to hell with it. i just compiled and collated my notes, conferred with boss, and he delicately put it down that i could go that way, meaning i can but shouldnt, but reprecussions might result if no proper backing is done. well, cant say i blame him. he has too much on his mind. everyone knows that there is a problem. but no one will point it out. its like as if there is a bigass pink elephant sitting in the middle of the living room but no one says a single word about it.
the point im trying to drive across is not that i should not remain undiplomatic but when the time needs be, please pull off that diplomatic veneer and hear things clear so that information can be disseminated quickly and easily. to tell the truth, there is no such thing as a perfect time. it doesnt exist. its just an illusion created by the human race to give us a sense of comfort when we have something to say but not the guts to do so.
i cannot hold back and let this go on. i need to do something. if the sandbag falls on my head, then so be it. in simple terms, i will back up my boss if the idea is good, and i will stop my boss beforehand if the idea is dumpster material. right now, i believe the idea is one of the best so far, honed together by me and him. not just because i had a hand in nurturing the idea into a fully formulated plan means that i want to claim credit by pushing it out as soon as possible. its a good plan because that will save time and effort in most places while cutting costs which is why i intend to run with it. boss can have all my credit for all i care. i care only about seeing that the work i give out is good, and produces results.
this cannot be held back anymore. i gotta learn to stop having my boss backing me up too. i cant always rely on him... though sometimes i need him there to make a better judgement call. he is there to support me when i need him to be, but he cannot fix everything that went wrong in the system. i guess i have to try and stand up to the diplomatic shithead winds around the corner. in the end, when its all good and done, i will have to stand up to this on my own one day. and boss cant always be there for me. but he will still provide me the moral support and guidance that i will forever be grateful for.
to hell with it. i just compiled and collated my notes, conferred with boss, and he delicately put it down that i could go that way, meaning i can but shouldnt, but reprecussions might result if no proper backing is done. well, cant say i blame him. he has too much on his mind. everyone knows that there is a problem. but no one will point it out. its like as if there is a bigass pink elephant sitting in the middle of the living room but no one says a single word about it.
the point im trying to drive across is not that i should not remain undiplomatic but when the time needs be, please pull off that diplomatic veneer and hear things clear so that information can be disseminated quickly and easily. to tell the truth, there is no such thing as a perfect time. it doesnt exist. its just an illusion created by the human race to give us a sense of comfort when we have something to say but not the guts to do so.
i cannot hold back and let this go on. i need to do something. if the sandbag falls on my head, then so be it. in simple terms, i will back up my boss if the idea is good, and i will stop my boss beforehand if the idea is dumpster material. right now, i believe the idea is one of the best so far, honed together by me and him. not just because i had a hand in nurturing the idea into a fully formulated plan means that i want to claim credit by pushing it out as soon as possible. its a good plan because that will save time and effort in most places while cutting costs which is why i intend to run with it. boss can have all my credit for all i care. i care only about seeing that the work i give out is good, and produces results.
this cannot be held back anymore. i gotta learn to stop having my boss backing me up too. i cant always rely on him... though sometimes i need him there to make a better judgement call. he is there to support me when i need him to be, but he cannot fix everything that went wrong in the system. i guess i have to try and stand up to the diplomatic shithead winds around the corner. in the end, when its all good and done, i will have to stand up to this on my own one day. and boss cant always be there for me. but he will still provide me the moral support and guidance that i will forever be grateful for.
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