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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
lets see... today was like so:
woke up late and rushed to work. after that, i made a last second decision to go with kaye to wine connection. we talked. i met this girl, tifanny. louise appeared out of the blue too. seems like the four of us are in the same damn boat. listen up, we like freedom. we like simple things. we dont want complications in out life. we have no need to answer to anyone but ourselves. this is what made us click. apart from personal problems that is. we drank white wine and red wine. i bought one back for myself to stuff. its smooth, and not to mention nice! slick. we chatted and well, talked out our problems. we really want freedom in what we do. we want to live life to the fullest, to talk all the bullshit that is ever possible. louise said to me simply, 'limpei ai lim green tea, pat lang gong chao sng, pat lang gong bo ho lim, pat lang gong simi lan jiao wei, wa ngei ngei ai lim. ying we si wa ai lim. um si li lim, li mai gong ah ni zhuay. we ka ki yong tao nao suin. wa ai, toh si wa ai. mai gong ai ni zhuay.'
what she said is true. i go by my own wishes, by my own ways. i want it, i jolly well work for it. you let me go in the past. im not willing to let you go either way. cos why? i choose what i want to drink, whether the public says otherwise. im me, and no one can do the choosing for me.
i still rememeber what we did when we broke up. i remember all too clearly. i dont care. i dont mind getting hurt again. i say so coz im willing to take all the bullshit that you can throw at me. be my guest. its cos of love that i do so. the scars remain mentally, as do the scars remain on my body. im not erasing them ever. they are a lesson in life that teaches me something new everyday. its freedom forever for me too. i want to be free, to be alone, to be who i am what i am when i am. i am like that. im a total asshole. but i dont care. im never ever erasing those scars that you put on me. cos it just reminds me of you. and i want them on for the rest of my life. if its anything, i want to learn from my mistakes. i dont want them to happen again. i put it down that i am not wanting to hurt you another time. there will never be another time. think its a fairy tale? yes, i think it is. but im working towards that fairytale in life.
you are unsure? you are afraid? dont give me that. you are not all those. you know too well. was it becos i betrayed you before? i admit that i have burt you too. i done my fair share of hurt, if not even more. i have let you down greatly and i dont just want to amend that mistake. i want to show you how much you mean to me. sorry doesnt bring things back to what they were. im working at it to make it all better. i want to give you that life that we can both be happy. i want to make it as best as i can, to the best of my abilities. thats why. im not losing this second chance. i want this second chance to last long. to last eternity. why am i out drinking till late with total strangers? we share the same thing. we want the same thing. freedom and love. that combination is possible. give me time to show you it is. i dreamt of it, and i want to implement it. i havent changed from last year, and im not going to do so of my personality. i am confident in myself to do what i put down in words. all i ask is time. im not asking you to commit now. dont get me wrong. it takes time. and im investing time. neither do i want you to make such drastic changes as you said. i want us to take it slow, to savour every moment of it.
you are never ugly, bad, or even distasteful in my eyes. you are nothing near them. you are in every way beautiful. and i want to show you things you never thought possible. things that are within our means, if we work together. all i ask is time of you. this is the starting of the dream i carved out to make it true in every sense. and most importantly, i want to see the dream being fufilled.
Kaye (geraldine), Louise, Tifanny... heres to singlehood and freedom for life! cheers. =)
woke up late and rushed to work. after that, i made a last second decision to go with kaye to wine connection. we talked. i met this girl, tifanny. louise appeared out of the blue too. seems like the four of us are in the same damn boat. listen up, we like freedom. we like simple things. we dont want complications in out life. we have no need to answer to anyone but ourselves. this is what made us click. apart from personal problems that is. we drank white wine and red wine. i bought one back for myself to stuff. its smooth, and not to mention nice! slick. we chatted and well, talked out our problems. we really want freedom in what we do. we want to live life to the fullest, to talk all the bullshit that is ever possible. louise said to me simply, 'limpei ai lim green tea, pat lang gong chao sng, pat lang gong bo ho lim, pat lang gong simi lan jiao wei, wa ngei ngei ai lim. ying we si wa ai lim. um si li lim, li mai gong ah ni zhuay. we ka ki yong tao nao suin. wa ai, toh si wa ai. mai gong ai ni zhuay.'
what she said is true. i go by my own wishes, by my own ways. i want it, i jolly well work for it. you let me go in the past. im not willing to let you go either way. cos why? i choose what i want to drink, whether the public says otherwise. im me, and no one can do the choosing for me.
i still rememeber what we did when we broke up. i remember all too clearly. i dont care. i dont mind getting hurt again. i say so coz im willing to take all the bullshit that you can throw at me. be my guest. its cos of love that i do so. the scars remain mentally, as do the scars remain on my body. im not erasing them ever. they are a lesson in life that teaches me something new everyday. its freedom forever for me too. i want to be free, to be alone, to be who i am what i am when i am. i am like that. im a total asshole. but i dont care. im never ever erasing those scars that you put on me. cos it just reminds me of you. and i want them on for the rest of my life. if its anything, i want to learn from my mistakes. i dont want them to happen again. i put it down that i am not wanting to hurt you another time. there will never be another time. think its a fairy tale? yes, i think it is. but im working towards that fairytale in life.
you are unsure? you are afraid? dont give me that. you are not all those. you know too well. was it becos i betrayed you before? i admit that i have burt you too. i done my fair share of hurt, if not even more. i have let you down greatly and i dont just want to amend that mistake. i want to show you how much you mean to me. sorry doesnt bring things back to what they were. im working at it to make it all better. i want to give you that life that we can both be happy. i want to make it as best as i can, to the best of my abilities. thats why. im not losing this second chance. i want this second chance to last long. to last eternity. why am i out drinking till late with total strangers? we share the same thing. we want the same thing. freedom and love. that combination is possible. give me time to show you it is. i dreamt of it, and i want to implement it. i havent changed from last year, and im not going to do so of my personality. i am confident in myself to do what i put down in words. all i ask is time. im not asking you to commit now. dont get me wrong. it takes time. and im investing time. neither do i want you to make such drastic changes as you said. i want us to take it slow, to savour every moment of it.
you are never ugly, bad, or even distasteful in my eyes. you are nothing near them. you are in every way beautiful. and i want to show you things you never thought possible. things that are within our means, if we work together. all i ask is time of you. this is the starting of the dream i carved out to make it true in every sense. and most importantly, i want to see the dream being fufilled.
Kaye (geraldine), Louise, Tifanny... heres to singlehood and freedom for life! cheers. =)
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