X-Worldx : Nothing More. Nothing Less.

had a talk with summer and mark. seems like they are telling me the same damn thing. only thing is, mark knows me better and im too stubborn and headstrong to listen to sound advice. he knows my reaction to situations and what is gonna happen. mark seems like a damn gypsy. summer is telling me to just remain friends. i can tell she has my interests at heart. everyone is singing to the same tune, while i choose to go against the flow and to give it my ultimate shot. or more likely, die trying. am i born THIS stupid?

what seems wrong with me? i personally dont know. why do i choose to go back in time? im not sure either. mark asked me this question. is what im doing now just for fun or for seriousness? you oughta know the answer. why? why? why??? why am i so stupid? mark is asking me that. why do i choose to get hurt again? summer just put it across plain in my face, if you know that its dead, why do you still hang on? that left me in silence. she told me the best move is for me to move on, and dont ever look back. is that ever possible for me when you left a dent in my life? somehow, i feel like the reason is for them to protect me, not letting me fall again. summer can tell that i am not willing to give up, even what has been said and done. but summer left me with this piece of advice, being friends opens new worlds. and from there, then you analyse the picture again and decide your next move. isnt this just like a game of chess??? i suck badly at chess.

maybe im too headstrong. maybe i just see the target ahead of me and i dont look at the surrounding dangers. the surrounding dangers are oblivious to me. i dont care. i dont bother. all sides are slamming me right now. but im still pushing ahead cos of you. summer, mark, you told me a lot of things. i want to do so. but i know i cant let go without trying another time. i just want to. i want things to work.

why is life filled with fucking maybes?!?!?!?!?!?! why cant it be 'you can bet your testes on that piece of shit?' argh. i want to be friends first, to really know you. but im just plain afraid to lose you ok? i admit, im afraid to lose you.


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