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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
DAMMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANNA FUCKING SCREAM BUT I CANT. I FEEL SUFFOCATED AND I CANT BREATH. I AM SO ENCLOSED AND I NEED SPACE TO RUN BUT I CANT FIND SPACE TO RUN TO AND HIDE... HOW THE FUCK IS SOMEONE ABLE TO LIVE LIKE THIS??? LIKE A DAMNED CAGED ANIMAL, BEING OBSERVED BY OTHERS FOR EVERY FUCKING MOVE THAT I MAKE.
how does it feel to lose the sense to live? good? yeah, i feel good all right. im sick, and i dont care. whether i live or die, thats not MY problem. its God's. im free to leave anytime and without regrets. maybe, just one...
dammnit, i know the people around me care, but hell, cant i have MY OWN FUCKING SAY IN THiS HEALTH MATTER??? ITS MY FUCKING HEALTH FOR CHRIST SAKE~!~!~! i appreciate it, but draw the damned line willya??? im all right and all i need is time. dont you understand time will help me more than medication???
i know you care, i know you bother, and i know you are worried. but i need space. SPACE.
SPACE
just leave me be for the moment. i know my body best. not you nor the president for that matter. i know my limits and will know when to stop when im unwell. right now, im right pissed and im trying to cool down. just leave me be... i need time ALONE.
forgive me for this vulgar post. i need to cool off. and im venting it on out blogspot. thanks for listening me out.
'FUCK' COUNT=5 vulgarity rating (1-10)=9.5 God, i dont think i have ever been this vulgar online. my apologies. i dont wanna take it out on LSH, thats why i chose to vent it on my blog instead. once again, my sincerest apologies. i feel better now.
how does it feel to lose the sense to live? good? yeah, i feel good all right. im sick, and i dont care. whether i live or die, thats not MY problem. its God's. im free to leave anytime and without regrets. maybe, just one...
dammnit, i know the people around me care, but hell, cant i have MY OWN FUCKING SAY IN THiS HEALTH MATTER??? ITS MY FUCKING HEALTH FOR CHRIST SAKE~!~!~! i appreciate it, but draw the damned line willya??? im all right and all i need is time. dont you understand time will help me more than medication???
i know you care, i know you bother, and i know you are worried. but i need space. SPACE.
just leave me be for the moment. i know my body best. not you nor the president for that matter. i know my limits and will know when to stop when im unwell. right now, im right pissed and im trying to cool down. just leave me be... i need time ALONE.
forgive me for this vulgar post. i need to cool off. and im venting it on out blogspot. thanks for listening me out.
'FUCK' COUNT=5 vulgarity rating (1-10)=9.5 God, i dont think i have ever been this vulgar online. my apologies. i dont wanna take it out on LSH, thats why i chose to vent it on my blog instead. once again, my sincerest apologies. i feel better now.
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