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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
in another shitty state again. what the hell... took a long walk home from NUS area. damn, still didnt clear my mind. HEY, its not like some shitty crappy kinda HDD that you can format as and when u want. or so i wish. i really need to clear it out of my mind.
i talked. i made that decision, for i said that should any problem, suspicions yada yada arise, we talk. no holds barred, and no suspicion so as not to put excess strain. smart idea... real smart. in the end, words are the most lethal weapon ever produced and seen AND heard on the face of this damnable world. like hell it is. it sure is ruining my day like no nuclear war ever can. doesnt really matter does it? im just too tired from all the thinking. i just try and sort out my thoughts to pray, dammit, i cant even sort, much less pray. ITS NOT HIM NOT RECEIVING, ITS ME NOT TRANSMITTING. heck, i cant think of how to solve it.
and its the same old shit all over again, here i am, sitting on the electrified chain linked fence, waiting for the 5 MT thermonuclear device to drop on my head. some say overkill, i say being sure, 500 times over. there isnt any indication on which side i will fall on, and either way, the landing on either side isnt pretty news either. it just means hell on both sides, figuratively speaking.
i wish i knew what to do. i already said what i needed to say, and just moved out from there. the rest is up to you. you make the call, then i decide the next move i'll make. damn, it sure sounds like a bloody chess game here. one move at a time, and wait... and see again, and move and wait. the wait is killing me, and the suspense is really tearing at the edges... hell, i guess i'll go sleep. snooze some time away.
i talked. i made that decision, for i said that should any problem, suspicions yada yada arise, we talk. no holds barred, and no suspicion so as not to put excess strain. smart idea... real smart. in the end, words are the most lethal weapon ever produced and seen AND heard on the face of this damnable world. like hell it is. it sure is ruining my day like no nuclear war ever can. doesnt really matter does it? im just too tired from all the thinking. i just try and sort out my thoughts to pray, dammit, i cant even sort, much less pray. ITS NOT HIM NOT RECEIVING, ITS ME NOT TRANSMITTING. heck, i cant think of how to solve it.
and its the same old shit all over again, here i am, sitting on the electrified chain linked fence, waiting for the 5 MT thermonuclear device to drop on my head. some say overkill, i say being sure, 500 times over. there isnt any indication on which side i will fall on, and either way, the landing on either side isnt pretty news either. it just means hell on both sides, figuratively speaking.
i wish i knew what to do. i already said what i needed to say, and just moved out from there. the rest is up to you. you make the call, then i decide the next move i'll make. damn, it sure sounds like a bloody chess game here. one move at a time, and wait... and see again, and move and wait. the wait is killing me, and the suspense is really tearing at the edges... hell, i guess i'll go sleep. snooze some time away.
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