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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
im kinda weirded out. i dont know why. i just feel in a daze all of a sudden and i dont feel normal at all. i mean, the whirl of emotions just kind of lost out on me. and im pretty lost myself. what can i do? im not sure that i can do anything. its not that im thinking crazy thoughts. i know myself better than that. but the ideas float about and hints are in my face all of a sudden. not that i know why either.
and im gripped with fear. of what i have heard. i was taken aback. i know that circumstances do not allow an easy going path, but how does it turn out like this? i just am so uncertain. but you put a promise in front of yourself and me. and i trust that you will live up to that promise. not only that, but the promise of keeping communications crystal clear. as clear as the day blue sky. so much for liberalism.
am i in too deep? have i delved too deep all of a sudden? i think i chose to. i know i chose to. paranioa is kicking in and im torn in between. im trying to shove it out of my mind, trying to kick it away. because of the fact that we communicated, and you held up your end of the promise. i should keep my end up and hold it at face value, not holding suspecting and degrading thoughts about what was said.
i believe firmly in the trust that He has put in me. and for the trust that YOU have earned from me. and i hope that the trust between us will not fail. for i give you my word, all such thoughts will perish after the talk. and i hope that, i too, have earned your trust in me. and we have made a pact not to even consider giving the ultimatum under any circumstances before clarification to decide the next step.
i had my say, and i have heard your part of the story. never assume the trust and always clarify the situation under all instances. that is what i believe in, and i hope you share the same thoughts as me. mentality wise, you are thinking on the right frequency. forgive me if i sound foreboding. it was not meant to sound this way. it was just a simple stand of opinion. and hearing yours, we compromise.
and im gripped with fear. of what i have heard. i was taken aback. i know that circumstances do not allow an easy going path, but how does it turn out like this? i just am so uncertain. but you put a promise in front of yourself and me. and i trust that you will live up to that promise. not only that, but the promise of keeping communications crystal clear. as clear as the day blue sky. so much for liberalism.
am i in too deep? have i delved too deep all of a sudden? i think i chose to. i know i chose to. paranioa is kicking in and im torn in between. im trying to shove it out of my mind, trying to kick it away. because of the fact that we communicated, and you held up your end of the promise. i should keep my end up and hold it at face value, not holding suspecting and degrading thoughts about what was said.
i believe firmly in the trust that He has put in me. and for the trust that YOU have earned from me. and i hope that the trust between us will not fail. for i give you my word, all such thoughts will perish after the talk. and i hope that, i too, have earned your trust in me. and we have made a pact not to even consider giving the ultimatum under any circumstances before clarification to decide the next step.
i had my say, and i have heard your part of the story. never assume the trust and always clarify the situation under all instances. that is what i believe in, and i hope you share the same thoughts as me. mentality wise, you are thinking on the right frequency. forgive me if i sound foreboding. it was not meant to sound this way. it was just a simple stand of opinion. and hearing yours, we compromise.
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