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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
i finally got my laptop back. sure as hell suffered from internet deprivation. almost went crazy with boredom from the past week. i was thinking, my line of communication to those people was through the internet and i cannot access my email.
for me, i cannot formulate words easily. im better at expressing myself through letters. literal kind of person. and most of the time, what i feel and what i say, just doesnt seem to sound the same. maybe its becuase i dont know how to express it out. or maybe its something else. i dont know whether im just plain dumb and stupid, for not being able to say the simplest of things.
and worse still, i dont know if its too late to find out. ive had enough of drinking. it just gets boring after a while you know? not just that, it sure as hell is taking a toll on me.
yeah, emotions, they love to devour you from the inside. and slowly etch away what remains. the major 5 elements of emotions, they eat you and pain you slowly. hey, its all part and parcel of life isnt it? yeah right. it was supposed to be simpler and more painless than this! damnnit. there isnt a solution to life either. neither will the same path work for 2 people. everyone is just, well, different. different routes to travel, different twists and turns.
the admission of a mistake is the first step in rectifying the problem. i too, have my bad points. im not perfect. if anyone was, that would be God Himself. i search my ownself too. i am pained. what can i do? i ask myself countless times that same question till im sick of it. the reply is always the same monotonous NOTHING. i feel powerless, weak and unable to do anything. and all i hope, is for a different outlook.
sounds simple? its not all that simple if you try. but i remember this one thing, one can't fail to win, unless one fails to try.
for me, i cannot formulate words easily. im better at expressing myself through letters. literal kind of person. and most of the time, what i feel and what i say, just doesnt seem to sound the same. maybe its becuase i dont know how to express it out. or maybe its something else. i dont know whether im just plain dumb and stupid, for not being able to say the simplest of things.
and worse still, i dont know if its too late to find out. ive had enough of drinking. it just gets boring after a while you know? not just that, it sure as hell is taking a toll on me.
yeah, emotions, they love to devour you from the inside. and slowly etch away what remains. the major 5 elements of emotions, they eat you and pain you slowly. hey, its all part and parcel of life isnt it? yeah right. it was supposed to be simpler and more painless than this! damnnit. there isnt a solution to life either. neither will the same path work for 2 people. everyone is just, well, different. different routes to travel, different twists and turns.
the admission of a mistake is the first step in rectifying the problem. i too, have my bad points. im not perfect. if anyone was, that would be God Himself. i search my ownself too. i am pained. what can i do? i ask myself countless times that same question till im sick of it. the reply is always the same monotonous NOTHING. i feel powerless, weak and unable to do anything. and all i hope, is for a different outlook.
sounds simple? its not all that simple if you try. but i remember this one thing, one can't fail to win, unless one fails to try.
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