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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
nothing in this world makes sense anymore... my world is spinning out of control. where is salvation when you need it? it has deserted me, just like my feelings. devoid of them. strangely feeling that im just living a life with no aim, just wandering about and seeing but not recording. this isnt a video game here. there aint no restart button to start all over again. and the best thing is, there isnt a guide. no walkthrough, no cheats. life, the ultimate game, where you get only one chance, and if u screw it up, ur finished forever.
i wish there was a restart button. or maybe turning the game off totally is a better option. i dont know. im messed up, feeling like shit, and definitely not in the correct frame of mind to think properly. both know the correct thing to do, but at the same time, both are afraid to implement it. for what? for fear? for hopes? living seems to be a daily torture only. nothing else. if it could be more, it would be a miracle.
dont think it dumb that i may one day pull the plug on the game of life. i consider it, those who can do, do. those who cant, just back off. i dont want to be shaken no more. to feel this way, its an experience, but one not worth going through. after all that is said, i just wanna drift off, somewhere, maybe to some island where i am alone. or sail to the ends of the world in a yacht. only docking in port for refills on inventories. to cut the world out of my life, and be with the sea.
im in a losing war arent i? always the one on the losing end. maybe its because, i chose to be that way. u arent seeing it, but its there. in the darkness, away from your eyes, only visible to me.
i wish there was a restart button. or maybe turning the game off totally is a better option. i dont know. im messed up, feeling like shit, and definitely not in the correct frame of mind to think properly. both know the correct thing to do, but at the same time, both are afraid to implement it. for what? for fear? for hopes? living seems to be a daily torture only. nothing else. if it could be more, it would be a miracle.
dont think it dumb that i may one day pull the plug on the game of life. i consider it, those who can do, do. those who cant, just back off. i dont want to be shaken no more. to feel this way, its an experience, but one not worth going through. after all that is said, i just wanna drift off, somewhere, maybe to some island where i am alone. or sail to the ends of the world in a yacht. only docking in port for refills on inventories. to cut the world out of my life, and be with the sea.
im in a losing war arent i? always the one on the losing end. maybe its because, i chose to be that way. u arent seeing it, but its there. in the darkness, away from your eyes, only visible to me.
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