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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
shit, i just thought that i can leave it at that. i didnt think about the reprecussions. thinking i would be feeling fine. its just all a mask. a pretense.
to me, the world has lost its meaning. i think i am crazy. i just am so unsure of myself now. all i want in life is very simple. i have said it before. to love someone with my heart, and give my all. its all just so simple. how in hell did it ever get so damn complicated? how did life become so screwed up in the first place? i really dont know how.
i need the confidence. to give and take. drawing from each other, thats all there is. someone whom i can rely on, that i know i can use the confidence and make my way through the hard times. is it all that hard to undertstand? in short, its just love and confidence, being reciprocrated. was it all that hard to find out??? is it all that hard to achieve??? did you even know the real me before giving up? im full of exsperation. did it seem so big a challenge that it wasnt worth the effort? if i showed my true colors, would that have made the difference? of that, i wouldnt even bet any money on it.
you just dont know either do you? many think im a hardliner. like a political person, whom i play games with the political 'left' and 'right' and doing a tricky balancing act at the same time. truth is, im not. im really not all that hard to understand. my goals are simple. only i made the conception that i am a complexity within a complexity. and my curiousity didnt make things any better anyway.
God, i just pray, for something, somewhere, will come a ray of light to show how i can handle the monumental stress. its breaking me down, although no one sees it, its not that they cant. i choose not to let others see the internal workings. i never thought i would end up this way, screwing around with life like this.
to me, the world has lost its meaning. i think i am crazy. i just am so unsure of myself now. all i want in life is very simple. i have said it before. to love someone with my heart, and give my all. its all just so simple. how in hell did it ever get so damn complicated? how did life become so screwed up in the first place? i really dont know how.
i need the confidence. to give and take. drawing from each other, thats all there is. someone whom i can rely on, that i know i can use the confidence and make my way through the hard times. is it all that hard to undertstand? in short, its just love and confidence, being reciprocrated. was it all that hard to find out??? is it all that hard to achieve??? did you even know the real me before giving up? im full of exsperation. did it seem so big a challenge that it wasnt worth the effort? if i showed my true colors, would that have made the difference? of that, i wouldnt even bet any money on it.
you just dont know either do you? many think im a hardliner. like a political person, whom i play games with the political 'left' and 'right' and doing a tricky balancing act at the same time. truth is, im not. im really not all that hard to understand. my goals are simple. only i made the conception that i am a complexity within a complexity. and my curiousity didnt make things any better anyway.
God, i just pray, for something, somewhere, will come a ray of light to show how i can handle the monumental stress. its breaking me down, although no one sees it, its not that they cant. i choose not to let others see the internal workings. i never thought i would end up this way, screwing around with life like this.
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