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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
humans are such strange creatures. a creature of hope and invention. and now, we discover love. or more like, we just yearn for it. the companionship of the opposite gender. we find in it, a feeling termed love. what is this feeling? and surprisingly, love can cause hurt as well. hurt, unimaginable hurt, that pains you from the inside. and doesnt let go ever.
i know people, whom are perfectly happy with singlehood. and i know others, who seek the opposite gender rentlessly in the quest of love. is love really worth the heartbreak in the end? marraiges can last for years or decades, but how often does it happen? not that im singling out nor generalising. i give the benefit of the doubt that such things do exist. but humans, they seem so willing to go through this process of heartbreak in the search for their loved ones.
but is it really worth the time and effort, and if ur unlucky, to get stomped on in the end? does it justify the reason for getting into a relationship? so what if you are single for years on end? is the reason ever justified? you think so. in the spur of the moment, you justify everything, and i mean everything, just for love. is it a trap? a transparant trap at that? one that cannot be seen but felt as an aftershock?
what is it exactly that drives us to do such things? boredom? the mere feeling of companionship? i dont deny, the feeling is nice. but getting hurt in the end, is it nice as well? you answer that. you, as a person who controls your own thoughts and actions, should know your limits. i didnt know why either. and im just looking into thin air, with questions floating around in my brain. and i cant find a reason to counter all the questions either. make that not even one question. my mind is crushing in on itself, killing itself over the the mere job of finding a reason. and its getting nowhere.
i cannot comprehend this feeling. a feeling that i can do nothing, just letting nature run its path. but NO. i have to try and change the way things are. one cannot change the direction of the wind, but one can always adjust their sails. i just have to find out how. i NEED to find out how. before it gets the better of me. which it still hasnt, still at bay. of that, im still lucky.
i know people, whom are perfectly happy with singlehood. and i know others, who seek the opposite gender rentlessly in the quest of love. is love really worth the heartbreak in the end? marraiges can last for years or decades, but how often does it happen? not that im singling out nor generalising. i give the benefit of the doubt that such things do exist. but humans, they seem so willing to go through this process of heartbreak in the search for their loved ones.
but is it really worth the time and effort, and if ur unlucky, to get stomped on in the end? does it justify the reason for getting into a relationship? so what if you are single for years on end? is the reason ever justified? you think so. in the spur of the moment, you justify everything, and i mean everything, just for love. is it a trap? a transparant trap at that? one that cannot be seen but felt as an aftershock?
what is it exactly that drives us to do such things? boredom? the mere feeling of companionship? i dont deny, the feeling is nice. but getting hurt in the end, is it nice as well? you answer that. you, as a person who controls your own thoughts and actions, should know your limits. i didnt know why either. and im just looking into thin air, with questions floating around in my brain. and i cant find a reason to counter all the questions either. make that not even one question. my mind is crushing in on itself, killing itself over the the mere job of finding a reason. and its getting nowhere.
i cannot comprehend this feeling. a feeling that i can do nothing, just letting nature run its path. but NO. i have to try and change the way things are. one cannot change the direction of the wind, but one can always adjust their sails. i just have to find out how. i NEED to find out how. before it gets the better of me. which it still hasnt, still at bay. of that, im still lucky.
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