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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
im drunk. damnnit... went out and met with a friend. and now im in this state. at least now i rest easier. but i just have to lose my senses.
decided the best way was to get a real kick and get martell. yea, u heard right. MARTELL. expensive, yes. kickass, yes. just thought i'd get drunk to the extent that i'll wander into the streets and get knocked down by a car.
to me, reality sucks. i feel now that the past week was a dream. was it really a dream? we had a frank talk. my world crashed then, spread from breakfast to hell. that was why i decided to get myself so drunk with martell. i just feel so empty now... this void in me, its eating me up from the inside.
so what if its a big lie? so what? i told you, i'll stand by you, be beside you, and be the one to protect you. i never go back on my words. and don't ever, ever, EVER follow in my footsteps. guilt isn't and shouldn't be the motivation to do such silly things. i already put it down plainly for you to see. and this is my oath to you.
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i will wait, for as long as it takes.
i will protect, to the extent of my life being less important than yours.
i will be your pillar of strength, your crying shoulder and ultimately, the one always there for you.
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i've got no more tears to shed. literally running on empty now. i just feel that it wasn't the past week. maybe, my entire life is just one big lie in itself. you tell me, was it? im not sure of myself anymore. to escape from this world... i need a ticket outta here. true that what i said was stupid. i dont deny that. i am stupid... right now. to get so drunk. and to wake up with a hangover.
you tell me whats going on. so much for bottoms up on martell. its just a way to escape in life for a temporary time. in the end, ur still stuck back in this shitty part of the world.now, im feeling like shit. i cant study. i cant read. hell, typing is also a big problem. focusing on the damn laptop is way too hard. we'll see how it goes. living day to day is what i now know. i just wanna escape from this world now.
damn this life.
decided the best way was to get a real kick and get martell. yea, u heard right. MARTELL. expensive, yes. kickass, yes. just thought i'd get drunk to the extent that i'll wander into the streets and get knocked down by a car.
to me, reality sucks. i feel now that the past week was a dream. was it really a dream? we had a frank talk. my world crashed then, spread from breakfast to hell. that was why i decided to get myself so drunk with martell. i just feel so empty now... this void in me, its eating me up from the inside.
so what if its a big lie? so what? i told you, i'll stand by you, be beside you, and be the one to protect you. i never go back on my words. and don't ever, ever, EVER follow in my footsteps. guilt isn't and shouldn't be the motivation to do such silly things. i already put it down plainly for you to see. and this is my oath to you.
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i will wait, for as long as it takes.
i will protect, to the extent of my life being less important than yours.
i will be your pillar of strength, your crying shoulder and ultimately, the one always there for you.
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i've got no more tears to shed. literally running on empty now. i just feel that it wasn't the past week. maybe, my entire life is just one big lie in itself. you tell me, was it? im not sure of myself anymore. to escape from this world... i need a ticket outta here. true that what i said was stupid. i dont deny that. i am stupid... right now. to get so drunk. and to wake up with a hangover.
you tell me whats going on. so much for bottoms up on martell. its just a way to escape in life for a temporary time. in the end, ur still stuck back in this shitty part of the world.now, im feeling like shit. i cant study. i cant read. hell, typing is also a big problem. focusing on the damn laptop is way too hard. we'll see how it goes. living day to day is what i now know. i just wanna escape from this world now.
damn this life.
I messed this area @
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