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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
i went out in the hopes to keep a promise... but somehow, my thoughts drift to you for brief periods. i want to concentrate, and i tried, and i gained more knowledge. but you break my train of thought countless times.
i just know now. how much of an ass i am. how horrible i had been. and how, instead of you betraying my trust, i find out that it was me that betrayed your trust. i am the one that is not worthy of you. now i know. and know what? i saw a rainbow. the rainbow was so pretty. and i happened to just think, how can i be able to see the rainbow? i dont know myself. i am not worthy to experience such a nice rainbow of nature itself. to be able to see it even. to even know of its existence.
all i can say is, i f**ked up. in a way that was deemed impossible by me. im sorry. im just so sorry. if all comes to naught, i am prepared to pay the ultimate price for that. for betraying you. i will pay the ultimate price.
and now, the rainbow is gone. i sit alone as darkness sets in. just thinking.
i just know now. how much of an ass i am. how horrible i had been. and how, instead of you betraying my trust, i find out that it was me that betrayed your trust. i am the one that is not worthy of you. now i know. and know what? i saw a rainbow. the rainbow was so pretty. and i happened to just think, how can i be able to see the rainbow? i dont know myself. i am not worthy to experience such a nice rainbow of nature itself. to be able to see it even. to even know of its existence.
all i can say is, i f**ked up. in a way that was deemed impossible by me. im sorry. im just so sorry. if all comes to naught, i am prepared to pay the ultimate price for that. for betraying you. i will pay the ultimate price.
and now, the rainbow is gone. i sit alone as darkness sets in. just thinking.
I messed this area @
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