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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
basically, this post is to tell my friends how much i treasure them. these close friends: namely cheryl, jeffery, desmond and garrett... these friends help me through my toughest times and console me when im sad. its when im sad when they show how much they care for me. and when im down and out, its these friends i turn to and they help willingly. but best of all, they care by advising me on the right path. to stop deceiving myself into a false seclusion of smoke and alcohol.
no where in my entire life have i encountered such friendship. and such friendship is hard to find. and i am so glad that i have such people around me. as for the relationships, im taking it one step at a time and calculating each step as i go along. not an easy thing to do. and so is giving up on both. truth is, im not willing to give up on either. and thats my biggest fault.
coz today, L called me and we kinda talked for abt 2 hours. thats like freaking long considering im trying to treat her as a friend for now. and such things are like that. im trying to weigh my actions and seeing the consequences that will happen in future. and i just wish that somehow, there will be an easy way out of this mess that im in. i love S and L at the same time. but somehow thats impossible in everyone's view.
maybe with S, it could be sympathy love. coz shes not doing well in school and that im in the same state as her and feel the same way. and in a way, it makes me want to help her. im not sure myself. and with L, it could be that im guilty for letting her go in the first place and i want another chance to make things right. its so crazy for me now, and im trying my best to keep my head. literally...
o well, all in all, i just want these friends to know that i treasure them and that they will remain in my heart as true friends. friends that never ever give up on each other. thank you for your help... nite all...
no where in my entire life have i encountered such friendship. and such friendship is hard to find. and i am so glad that i have such people around me. as for the relationships, im taking it one step at a time and calculating each step as i go along. not an easy thing to do. and so is giving up on both. truth is, im not willing to give up on either. and thats my biggest fault.
coz today, L called me and we kinda talked for abt 2 hours. thats like freaking long considering im trying to treat her as a friend for now. and such things are like that. im trying to weigh my actions and seeing the consequences that will happen in future. and i just wish that somehow, there will be an easy way out of this mess that im in. i love S and L at the same time. but somehow thats impossible in everyone's view.
maybe with S, it could be sympathy love. coz shes not doing well in school and that im in the same state as her and feel the same way. and in a way, it makes me want to help her. im not sure myself. and with L, it could be that im guilty for letting her go in the first place and i want another chance to make things right. its so crazy for me now, and im trying my best to keep my head. literally...
o well, all in all, i just want these friends to know that i treasure them and that they will remain in my heart as true friends. friends that never ever give up on each other. thank you for your help... nite all...
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