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Joce-lyn
All I yearn, is for the love of someone, coupled with the love from my sibling and parents. And to me, true love is when one sees an imperfect person perfectly. Which is what I see in you. The degree of the love that I have for you, I will learn from my past mistakes and make myself better for you. Just you. Then again, maybe I'm never the one. I'm not perfect, nor am I good in any sense.
Actions never coincide with words, and thoughts never coincide with either. That is, if you ever get past the first sentence.
today wasnt a good day for sales, but then, it was a good day for understanding my colleagues more... seems weird huh?? but then, its real.
this guy is my colleague and he looks like those kinda ah bengs you find in Sim Lim Square and his attitude is really different. not that its bad, its just different. i found out that hes more straightforward rather than trying to act smart all the time... there you go for people like me to judge people by their looks.
anyway, today didnt have much sales, so time passed damn slowly. and its real torturous... try standing for 10 hours a day for 6 days in a row and see how many yuks you have. thats gonna be a real pain. and its real pain that your legs are feeling. but anyway, my past love from my workplace is finally getting on good terms. its just that i kinda am afraid to talk to her. well, we had many a good time together and maybe it was a mistake to let her go. i dunno. its real confusing here, but either way, now im torn between 2 loves. one is S, the other is her. so lets call her L. i just dont know what to do. its not that i really can make a choice now. and that i kinda decided a while back that i shouldnt even decide on having a relationship or marrying for that matter when i cant even take care of myself. its some self psychoing for you guys out there who dont wanna marry. but now, im trying to keep that frame of mind, not to mention my sanity. i think im really going crazy and all that jazz, but then, im stuggling with keeping my mind in one piece. freaking hard thing to do when you are bombarded with all these problems.
sometimes i think my only way out is death. but then, thats like a bit over-reacting. of course, thats a sin and all that, coz im a christian. so much for faith... o well, its just that the stresses in life will eventually catch up with you and then consume you. i dont really wanna make things so hard for myself. and i try to believe that whats over is over and that i should just look forward in life. and currently, i love S, but then, L is there and i still care for her.
its so problematic. i guess i'll just sleep on it just like i sleep on the rest of my problems. no choice there. and besides, its late already and work is beckoning tomorrow. shit... o well, i'll blog another day then. see ya...
this guy is my colleague and he looks like those kinda ah bengs you find in Sim Lim Square and his attitude is really different. not that its bad, its just different. i found out that hes more straightforward rather than trying to act smart all the time... there you go for people like me to judge people by their looks.
anyway, today didnt have much sales, so time passed damn slowly. and its real torturous... try standing for 10 hours a day for 6 days in a row and see how many yuks you have. thats gonna be a real pain. and its real pain that your legs are feeling. but anyway, my past love from my workplace is finally getting on good terms. its just that i kinda am afraid to talk to her. well, we had many a good time together and maybe it was a mistake to let her go. i dunno. its real confusing here, but either way, now im torn between 2 loves. one is S, the other is her. so lets call her L. i just dont know what to do. its not that i really can make a choice now. and that i kinda decided a while back that i shouldnt even decide on having a relationship or marrying for that matter when i cant even take care of myself. its some self psychoing for you guys out there who dont wanna marry. but now, im trying to keep that frame of mind, not to mention my sanity. i think im really going crazy and all that jazz, but then, im stuggling with keeping my mind in one piece. freaking hard thing to do when you are bombarded with all these problems.
sometimes i think my only way out is death. but then, thats like a bit over-reacting. of course, thats a sin and all that, coz im a christian. so much for faith... o well, its just that the stresses in life will eventually catch up with you and then consume you. i dont really wanna make things so hard for myself. and i try to believe that whats over is over and that i should just look forward in life. and currently, i love S, but then, L is there and i still care for her.
its so problematic. i guess i'll just sleep on it just like i sleep on the rest of my problems. no choice there. and besides, its late already and work is beckoning tomorrow. shit... o well, i'll blog another day then. see ya...
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